because i'm just like you. ♥

2011-10-29T15:40:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life, we breathe out joy.

We breathe out love, we breathe out hope.

At times, I don't know what I'm doing here, why I'm doing this, what's my life purpose?

What is religion really?

Sometimes I hate all these talk of "come know the Lord, your life will be free" and all those people who pressured me to be in a certain religion.

But what is religion?

I believe that although this sounds so selfish, the only thing that makes me believe is my sole relationship between God. Or anyone. No external pressure, no internal pressure. Nothing.

Where does it draw the line of being selfish? When in the beginning, we've been taught that we should take care of ourselves first then only others.

I feel all these money, degree, education stuff, is making me feel like a blunt mess.

And I'd like to highlight to anyone not to take pity on my downfall, or my background, or anything about myself. Sure I do like being cared for, but I don't need you to introduce me to some counselling or some professional self-help course just because you, as my friend, are not capable of helping me.

Have an ear, listen, and know how I feel. Know when other people can intervened in my situations and don't think you can handle me just because you know experts who know how to.

I am myself. So shut up, accept it, understand me, and I'll respect you the same way.

2011-08-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

Untangling.

Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed?

I would not consider this one of my emotional moments. Rather I would consider this a moment to pour out feelings.

Half a year has gone and I'll be off to America in a year's time. My life feels like it's sped up quicker than I thought and my lack of extra curricular posts back in high school has made me an extreme high achiever in college, taking up all the committee posts I could have gotten back then.

I know that quantity does not make up for quality in testimonials but there's this desire that makes me want to do more of what I have not done before. As a result, my time management is crazily imbalance, I wake up wondering what I have not done yet and what's due even though I'm on semester break.

I am not naturally kiasu. In fact, I'm self-contented with many things in life and I'm the kind that wouldn't push the extra mile if it's unnecessary. But every time I felt satisfied with where I stand, the moment I see a close friend of mine being a lot better than me, I feel so unsatisfied with where I'm standing.

Sure, tell me not to compare, tell me to be happy with where I am, but my personality has grown to where if I'm not the best, I don't know who else will be. I have been inferior to everyone else all my life, it's time for me to just break out of this shell.

It's funny how I know what's bad for me yet I continue to dwell in it. I am unfortunately motivated by negative emotions like pressure and stress to excel, the way most Asian kids grow up. I could have been different, I could have learned to have fun. I've been disappointed way too much with my social life, that I decided that I should just stick to being anti-social.

Most of the time I want to be found when I'm alone.

2011-06-26T14:17:00.002+08:00

Deep down I'm still in love with you.

Despite hating your guts.
Despite you ignoring me.

Despite you thinking I'm such an overdramatic queen.
Despite you liking someone else.
Despite everything.

I still hold something that couldn't be open, couldn't be touched, couldn't be felt anymore.

I know that I won't be with you till the end, so why does my heart tell me a different story?

2011-06-12T12:10:00.007+08:00

Hello peeps. :)

I decided to come back and blog, mainly because I guess I have lots of things to write about life, college and drama.

I've finally overcome the emptiness in me, and beginning to find ways to love again.

So yes, if any of you actually reads this, I think I'm in love with this guy.

Who probably doesn't know I exist. Unless I talked to him.

He's...cute. I think...?

Lots of people don't think so.

I don't like his voice.

I don't like too much of his swearing.

I don't like how he looks sometimes.

I don't like how he doesn't even talk to me when I'm just right next to him.

So you will all be wondering, how the heck do you even like him?

My answer is: I have no idea.

You don't think before you fall, so obviously when I fell, you expect me to know what happened?

*Sighs*

2011-02-03T01:00:00.002+08:00

and i miss him more than ever.

2011-01-31T13:43:00.005+08:00

Why did you fall out when I was starting to fall in?

I don't feel like posting anything regarding day 1 or day 2 or whatsoever.

I cried yesterday.

I cried from 12 in the morning till like 4 pm.

And it was raining.

I was tempted to run into the rain and cry.

It was an ending that wasn't painful but yet I weep.

It wasn't a heartbreak but yet I hurt.

On that day I saw him, fell in love with him once more.

On that day, he talks to his mom, and he realises that it wasn't going to work out somehow.

On that day, what he used to believe in relationships had changed into my believes.

And on that day, he told me he loved me.

But it just wasn't the same.

But things work out somehow.

We still talk, but I told him how I really felt.

He was ready to move on but somehow I'm holding him back.

I thought about moving on but realised I had no courage to do so.

I don't want an ending.

Not too soon.

Not with me crying everytime I delete his messages.

He's just too nice a man.

2011-01-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

DAY 4.

Breaking the habit.

Procrastination?

FB-Stalking?

Gossiping about other people?

There's too many to name, yet with little improvement. I think without them, I would live a much better life. It's too addictive, it's bad, but it's tempting.

Habits. Easy to fall in, hard to get out.

applebananapie. <3

2011-01-29T00:11:00.001+08:00

Day 3 – A picture of me and my friends.

Try to spot me! :D

It’s like the back row, next to a super fair girl, with my two hands next to my face with bunny fingers.

Nevermind if you can’t find me, your loss.

applebananapie! xoxo

2011-01-27T13:12:00.004+08:00

I’m typing this from Microsoft Word to the blogpost just because the color isn’t coming out in the post.

So DAY 2!

What is there to write about DAY 2!

“Coloring life with a smile.”

Why I chose that. This phrase stuck with me for a few years. Originated from my MSN name actually. I think life really brightens with a smile? (OBVIOUSLY, CAPTAIN OBVIOUS) I mean like, I like to be cheerful. I like positivity. Although there’s some negativity. But I like positivity. Happiness is such………… A HAPPY THING. Like you feel better, you feel lighter, you see life in a better way. Maybe that’s why I have such a high tolerance level. BUT IT’S BAD. ACTUALLY I THINK I SHOULD BE MORE ANGRY LA. I SHOULD BE MORE GANAS AND START SWEARING THEN PEOPLE WILL BE MORE SCARED OF ME.

*Off-topic.*

My blog name’s direct. Doesn’t require explanation. Not like my previous name called Perfect Symmetry, I also dunno why I put that up, I like the sound of it and it’s sang by *google search BAND* KEANE. It’s an interesting song. J

Meh, that’s all for now.

Signing off!

Applebananapie. ♥

2011-01-26T17:18:00.007+08:00

I haven't posted anything for a long time. So here's something I found while bloghopping.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blogger name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friendsDay 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made oneDay 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parentsDay 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challengeDay 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

DAY 1

(I'll upload a pic for Day 1 soon)

1. Raise Your Glass by Pink is stuck in my head although I haven't heard it on the radio for a while.

2. I want to start college soon.

3. I'm still in a shock since results day.

4. I just went through my harddrive containing super OLD Japanese music. (Soundtracks from Samurai X !)

5. I just found out Jared Padalecki is married. (THE PAIN!)

6. I haven't camwhored for a while. (this pic was taken last year with ♥ )

7. I wish I could do splits and fly and kick like cheerleaders.

8. I'm gonna cut my hair again.

9. I miss hanging out with my camp friends. I like camp drama.

10. I talk A LOT when I'm nervous. Calms me down in a way...?

11. I'm gonna cycle tomorrow! :) (after 215845925425902 days of not cycling)

12. I haven't attended any concerts other than Michael Bolton's and Kitaro's concert.

13. I have a very high tolerance level. I wonder how I'd act when someone hits my boiling point.

14. I want a car.

15. I think there's nothing interesting about the past 14 things I just put up.

That's all for now! :) Till next time!

applebananapie. ♥

2010-11-17T23:14:00.004+08:00

I tried to play hard to get, which of course worked initially, but nevertheless failed to make you execute a move on me.

Has it been forever since I last uploaded?

I totally forgotten this blog even existed, I cancelled my art classes, had piano exam and IGCSE trials and exams and yada yada.

6 MONTHS PASSED REALLY FAST!

I think I did pretty well for IGCSE really. I'm worried for BM but NOT studying for it YET. I dunno why! I must study ):

Ingrid's doing her blogshop thing and I dunno what I'm going to arrange for my holidays! But most likely I may do/experience/attempt/overcome/enjoy these:

KIWANIS YOUTH CAMP 2010!
Beijing Trip!
Seventeen audition!
Learn SNSD 'Run Devil Run' piano and dance!
Practise my scales!
Get a JOB!
Earn some money!
Exercise more and become more flexible!

Strangely, my TO-DO list looks very mundane compared to last year's list. Like, even watching MOVIES isn't on my list! All the things I want to have fun last time, don't get to my list! What is wrong with me! Am I becoming lifeless? (I think being lifeless is good, coz it means I'm paying more attention to my studies, then I become smarter and a closer step to STANFORD UNIVERSITY.)

Came back from Hani's Hari Raya thing! So drowsy, ate lots of potato chips! (Rachel's fault :P)

GOSH SPM BM. LIFE.

BTW. I AM VERY OBSESSED WITH CHARLIE THE UNICORN.

"That is tragic."
"Not as tragic as your face!"

"That was uncalled for!"

"Your face is uncalled for!"

♥

Loves! xoxo

2010-11-10T14:40:00.004+08:00

OHMYGOODNESS.

I NEED A NEW BLOG MAKEOVER SERIOUSLY.

5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-28T16:59:00.008+08:00

HI PEOPLE! :)

I haven't been blogging like for a month plus so I shall start off with Sports Day.

24/4/10

March past failed to clinch a place that isn't last. It's damn disappointing considering the fact that I think I didn't put my whole effort in it (The final week before Sports Day I was forced to join). Everyone was dejected with the 'tiada semangat' we have for our shouts. Our march past captain was upset because her commands weren't loud enough and we had to squeeze in last minute changes (and a formation) on the day before Sports Day.

Anyhow my favourite seniors came over to watch Sports Day. Some long-lost friends came to surprise me too and although my last SriKL Sports Day wasn't very exciting for me, I am satisfied enough to have experienced my final school sports day.

On the contrary, I think all the cheerleading houses did really well. Green house's cheerleading was much better than last year (to my opinion) but yellow house really disappointed me. Blue house was really really AWESOME. Blue house to me was really synchronised and well I think they should deserved first place for their choreography and neatness. Though Red house to me was really ownage.

Went out later after sports day to meet up with bii and had dinner. He unfortunately couldn't make it to sports day due to no transport and I was kinda mad a bit coz he refused to take a taxi.

25/5/10

I earned my first paycheck! :D

Boast sikit la.

Yes I mendapat seratus ringgit. Dan juga dress dan lipstick mahal-mahal. Some more bukan saya atau ibu bapa saya atau keluarga saya atau kawan-kawan saya yang beli.

A company sponsored ALL that. *boast some more*

Aiyo let me have my syok sendiriness la. I boast like to almost all my friends. Sorry la, I very sad one I got nothing to boast about all these while then suddenly I have an ACTUAL salary so happy happy la. :D

Actually, I knew about all these stuff two hours before I was supposed to go to work for 6 hours...........to sell pianos. I didn't know what it was about because it was actually my mom's friend who kinda recommended me to her boss or something coz her boss heard me playing before and then the boss want me to like perform at some event. With salary of course. Ei I'm not so money minded k, I love charity work also k.

Anyway I didn't know I was supposed to PERFORM on the piano, until like 230 pm, which at 4 i'm suppose to start work. I was panicking like shyt coz I :

a) Dunno what to play.

b) I have stage fright.

c) My confidence level VERY LOW.

d) My playing not like 100% good.

e) WHY SO SUDDEN ONE!

So then my mom's friend so excitedly sign me up for a make-up appointment with Shiseido and dragged me to this shop where she kept on telling me how there was this dress that would make me look so good. I felt like a Barbie doll at that moment.

Then she bought me this super expensive lipstick coz she insisted she don't want to use other people's lipstick coz very unhygienic. It costs er...RM 95? I dunno la to you not costly, to me who don't buy lipstick wan, SO EXPENSIVE LA K!

So went there, perform, people came, OH! It's for a charity event apparently. The Vienna Music sponsor the piano for this particular charitable organisation so that I can perform. Oh there were cute guys too being helpers there for the company tsk tsk :p Okay to be honest they weren't cute, but they were funny and very encouraging coz I COMPLAINED LIKE TEN ZILLION TIMES THAT I DUNNO WHAT TO PLAY AND I CAN'T PLAY ON STAGE.

Which with God's miracle help, like whoa I actually didn't mind being on stage. Praise the Lord indeed.

OKAY. Back to like today. Wait I don't know what date is this post on. I'm updating this draft on Saturday. So anyway, I had food poisoning, I threw up the whole night, I didn't go to school for two days, I went to Charity Dinner, I had a little dress malfunction. And tada!

I gotta go coz my mom's scolding me to order Domino's pizza which is making weird fuzzy sounds like a horror movie for the third time.

2010-03-22T23:12:00.006+08:00

I came online with the excuse of doing my English homework but ended up diverting to Facebook and this.

My mom's very nice these days (after everything that happened on Friday). Well maybe there were these usual nagging and arguments but I kinda write it off my head 'cause they're just too frequent to be even remembered.

I shall be positive and say I love my Accounts and Business marks. :)

But I don't know how my grades will turn out in my report card *gasps*

I'm going Leo Charity Dinner yes :) But i very fan to ban leng but since my mom was like so excited to like do my make-up and stuff (she newly took up a course about professional make-up-ing), so I was like okay la.

And if I actually clearly remembered, my mom's suppose to ground me from going out.

Last Friday she was like all angsty and fuming 'cause I had been going out like the whole holiday week (I didn't go out on Tuesday and Wednesday though, but she kinda put it in her head I was going out the whole week).

Went out to Sunway, hang out with Edward and his friends, pergi snooker & pool which stinks terribly of heavy secondhand cigarette smoke. Mom wants me to go home then I told her I got red box with Cow and his friends. Then she was like "Wa you so daring now la!" (and I said confidently "YES!" some more on the phone, de heck right)

Then I made Cow tried to talk my mom out to let me go for the gathering, in the end she pun like allow me to go, on one condition : to get out of the terrible suffocating un-oxygenised place IMMEDIATELY.

Then ber-happy la of course. :D 'cause if I don't go, I will not only made Cow upset for FFK-ing him, but bii also la. :( Then I realised I had been in two outings in one day with me being the only girl in an all-guy gang. (There was Ming Hui too but she was like in between outings)

So yea, berhappy happy lo :D Esok lagi more happy, can skip double period English so I can delay my homework woot.

In condition that Ms. Pomy doesn't remember that she gave us holiday homework but I doubt that.

2010-03-11T21:12:00.003+08:00

I wish you knew the miserableness you put me through.

I'm stressed out by piano teacher. Just because I couldn't sing the bass line of this mumbo jumbo song filled with 5 keys chords, she starts making me sound like her worst student ever.

I know I'm not making great efforts. I just can't hit the right notes like that. I'm not some genius. I need like a step-by-step rule book. I don't care if all your students are so high distinction and you want me to be just as awesome as them. I don't care if they can sightread Grade 8 pieces. I know you love to boast how great your students are and everything else.

But heck sorry I'm not them.

So yeah I have three major exams to deal with : My Grade 8 piano exams, my IGCSE exams and my SPM. I'm going to like isolate myself away from facebook and my phone and throw myself towards the piano or my study table. I really hope I can survive throughout the year.

Aiyo my blog so plain. Come, I add pictures.

TA-DA!

Aiya I've got nothing much to update. My life quite anti-drama these days. Except same old friend conflicts and family arguments. Everything else's quite alrighty :)

Other than I wish I could fly. Then I wouldn't be so late to all my appointments.

2010-03-06T10:43:00.005+08:00

And here I am trying to brace a smile but yet deep down I'm tearing inside.

My blog title is so contradictory.

Here's something I would like to say about myself.

I'm a masochist.

I like inflicting pain on myself, just so people would see me and immediately shower me with care.

I like to attract attention just because I don't want to feel alone.

I like to make the people I love sad just so they could feel how much I'm hurting.

I like to complain just so the whole world knows how I feel.

I'm terrible.

I'm selfish.

I hate horror movies.

I hate to drama my life yet I do so.

I have the most loving family yet I fail to live up their hopes.

I hate feeling like this.

I hate feeling useless.

I hate it when people are happy when I'm being so depressed.

I hate it that I'm such an inconsiderate brat.

I hate it when I make the people I love feel so upset about me that they began to show tears.

And yet I'm doing nothing to make this feel better.

2010-02-26T08:25:00.007+08:00

I'm going crazy, I'm going insane, I'm going out of mind.

Fuck all this unnecessary stress. I haven't sworn for ages but everything's just spilling out.

Fine just take my phone if it helps you. Heck I'm feeling all tormented and yet you're trying to add fuel to fire. Like it's so fucking easy to like get over this. I'm trying to play it cool, but I'm burning all inside.

I'm trying to look at the brighter side of things. Why are you trying to make this difficult?? Just let me have a piece of freedom. Even though we are a little too much, but you don't just make the situation better by just suddenly cutting away us like that. You don't heal a person's pain for example in the leg by chopping them off so they don't feel that pain anymore.

Why do I think deja vu's happening? Because probably exactly one year ago, I had that exact same feeling. But it didn't involve my mom at the same time. And two weeks later after that, the heart I gave away came back in pieces.

Just give me a chance to get my happiness. I need someone who's gonna be there for me. I have my best friends, but sometimes a boy friend is just what I need at the moment.

Stop making my life miserable please. Why won't you just listen to my side of my story.

FML seriously.

2010-02-19T17:35:00.004+08:00

And I'm gonna get this done over.

I'm freaking too lazy to blog.

I don't even update my diary.

I had an awesome Chinese New Year. (with lots of photos, credits to my Mom who acted all professional with my camera :) )

I shall proudly say that I went out on a date with a guy on Valentine's Day for the first time. :D

Oh oh oh :)

♥

It's chained to my awesome phone (which I damaged it so much due to my clumsiness) now. Which i promised I'll now take care of my phone much much properly or I'll get that poor thing all scratched up ;x

Watched Tooth Fairy, story plot's so predictable, we laughed lots and we had fun. :)

And best of all, he just knows the right things that would make me smile. :)

Signing off! ;)

anna ♥

2010-02-11T21:13:00.007+08:00

and perhaps this was just a cover-up of how I feel.

Am I failing camwhoring or whut? :(

I can't seem to get a good picture of myself.

Like I used to be able to ace my phone camera angles really well. And I seem to be able to get a good facial expression.

Now I'll be looking at every single photo I take, stare at it for moments, feel disgusted at most of them and delete them out of my sight.

Went through my phone and got this terrible picture out.

Kesian Eugene kena bully by our home cell group with Darlie toothpaste and lipstick :D

Bored. Can't wait for the holidays.

2010-02-07T09:41:00.008+08:00

You see no harm trying. So why is your conscience telling you to stop?

Oh gosh, art class in 10 mins and I'm here blogging. : D

Win.

Was trying to find a nice background.

Fail indeed.

I was browsing through junk literally. Because blogspot's bullshitting (blogspot = bs = bullshit see? Damn lame bahahaha) me with unable to load pages. Half the blame goes to Streamyx too. And therefore I procrastinate blogging.

So I went through this junk Calvin gave me a long long way back. Found some err. Interesting ones to pick out : )

I'm late for art class by ten minutes. And it's a fifteen minutes distance to The One Academy.

I'm so terrible : D

And I haven't done my homework. And I don't understand Mr. Teh's teaching.

And holiday's in like 5 days.

Oh. And please don't mention about Case 39. I hate horror movies so much now. Wrong decision to teman my friend to watch. I wasted probably half the ticket money by squinting my eyes and turning away from the screen and shutting my ears away from listening to their unpredictable sound effects.

Oh oh and I went for this KDU IB talk thing. Super cool wei the TOK teacher. And there was like really an ahmolang teaching us Spanish and French in class : D

Hasta Pronto till next time! : D

Adios~!

2010-02-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

So much for trying to stay out of the drama.

Blog's hiatusing for the moment. Until blogspot can finally upload my pictures nicely while I find some way to get a new blog layout.

I'm tired of everything. Emotionally, physically, mentally.

2010-01-05T17:36:00.002+08:00

First day of school felt like.

............................................................................................

Hahahahahahahhahaahhahhhahhahhaa.

I dunno la. D:

Not as exciting I thought it would be.

I wanted to like sleep the whole day.

Saw lots of ex-form 5vers.

And my class is now known as 11 SIGMA.

Epic betul. :)

I got up late on the second day of school though.

At least I'm more awake than yesterday.

And I have lots of work to be done.

AND THIS IS AN IMPORTANT YEAR.

So gotta pay lots and lots of attention.

Though I don't understand whut my add maths teacher's talking about.

But oh well, will get through it somehow. : )

Okay me gonna like, STUDY.

Fuh, I'm so hardworking you gotta envy me for being so hardworking. :D

loves, ♥

2010-01-02T14:14:00.007+08:00

Eheehehehhe I hiatus so freaking long ♥

It's new years already and I have this long list of resolutions which I dunno whether I'm going to abide to it or not.

And blogger being as laggy as ever is making it harder for me to upload photos.

Gonna change my layout real soon, the color's boring me.

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010! :)

So many things, so many events.

Especially my hectic December. ;x

And i've been crazy over facebook since blogger's so potong stim with the unable to save my draft thing. :/

All the crazy things I've done past December, church camp, Miri, Comic Fiesta, prom.

So tada! Photoblogging : ) Enjoy!

And oh dear school's starting in two days >.<>.<

I think updating my blog will be part of my new year's resolution ;x

So tata for now :D

xoxo loves.

Anna

P.S I love you so much boy that I'm missing you already although I hear your voice almost everyday. : )

See you at the beginning of school. :) ♥

2009-11-24T14:30:00.003+08:00

*SCREAMS* I love Daniel Phillip HENNEYY!!!!!

Is there anyway I can meet him LIVEE? :D

2009-11-23T19:50:00.007+08:00

Hey I'm on hiatus again sorry. I spent hours and hours on the com right after exam's over, busy reading manga and facebooking.

I need to electrocute my brain cells soon. D:

I've gotten bored of updating my blog somehow. Not even my diary too ohmygosh. D: Facebooked too much, played too much sorority life, read too much of sappy manga everyday.

My results were okayy I guess.

Other than that I screwed Chemistry (remember stolen books from car) and Physics (totally instant failure :D)

I'm currently watching like 7 movies a week and burying myself with more books and possibly piano and guitar scores. I am very addicted to Susan Elizabeth Phillips books so I'm gonna bring one to Miri when I'm leaving on the 1st of Dec. :D

I'm not going to Kiwanis Youth Camp which I waited like since last year to go. Freaking sad la, since I waited damn long. :( Not because of those monsoon crap reasons, but because I'm as regular as a clock with my monthly issues (if you know what I mean). So I had to resort to Church camp which is earlier.

Anyway I think God's like really making me go Church camp in a way. Dunno la had this certain feeling. :D

Need to pack loads of stuff for Miri this weekkk.

But before that I must:

watch New Moon
watch Jennifer's Body
do cross stitching
SHOPPING!!!
get a bikini
pergi gym :D

See la if I wanna add some more.

Omgosh I so feel like going to KYC camp. :( The friend that I invited potong stim me and say he's going for another camp. Eeeessshhhh. Geram betul.

Snapshot of me playing the guitar. I'm self-learning and I just noticed my guitar posture seems out. My goodness I've got lots to learn. D: At least I can play a song or two. :)

Skyping with Malcolm and Fong Zheng now ahahaha. :D Listening to those two's so funneh la. :p

2009-11-11T23:09:00.006+08:00

Life goes on as usual.

So what drama went on while I was hiatus-ing of the blog?

Finals!

...and a car break-in in the middle of my exam period. Not the right time to steal my school bag for goodness sake. Ergh I warn you people, don't go Summit and leave your things in the car. Frequent cases there. Learnt my lesson totallyy.

Got a new haircut too! : )

After-finals party/Class party. From 6pm till 12 am on a Sunday night. : ) We invited the teachers too. Imagined us waking up to school tomorrow. Goodness.

And last but not least,

the girl in blue beside Krystal! :D

Dear I dunno how long have I known youuu : ) All the way to Standard 5 :D those silly fights and groups we had fun living in.

Remember Clara Nontoka Larae? And the rules and regulations? And S.P.I.? (Oh yes I do remember)

And the infamous TwinX Club which got leaked out (and till this very day some primary teachers still call me Flora omgosh =.=)

Very fond memories indeed I would say.

You've changed and grown, INGRID NG ZI HUI : ) Damn proud of you, Kiwanis president some more.

You're still crazy and moodswingy and that what makes you unique : D

And you went to help me through all those drama I went through in Form 1, all those boy-crazy infatuations I'd babble to you everyday :D All the gossips in school.

I know there were times I wasn't really nice, but we made up in the end right? : )

Bagai air dicincang putus la kita. :D

I have plenty to write about you actually, you know how I'm such a grandma storyteller. :D

HAPPY BELATED SWEET 16th INGRID~ (I wished you on facebook and on the phone on the 6/11/09 so I'm not considered late ahahahahahah :p) life would be so dull without youuuuu : )

xoxo babe. : )

2009-11-04T19:12:00.001+08:00

ONE MORE DAYY ~!

And then I can break free : )

2009-10-16T16:52:00.006+08:00

"When I say jump you say how high,

I ain't seen nobody, how they get so high

Like a bird, like a plane, this party got me insane

This party got me insane, so jump jump jump~!"

Flo Rida ft. Nelly Furtado - Jump

Three things come to my mind when I hear Jump.

a) Parkour

b) Cheerleading

c) G-Force

Don't think I'm gonna watch guinea pigs springing around anytime soon so c)'s out.

Parkour's really cool. I remember watching one movie that had these (I think) youngsters running away from law. I don't remember the name but I think the cast had some American-Africans. And they were battling Thai people.

Argh don't remember.

Even Madonna's music video 'Jump' had these people doing free running around Tokyo. Super coolll. : D

And nobody's gonna believe that I could do either a) or b).

Hey I love stunt-ing xD

Too bad my physical self now is not as flexible when I was like 10.

I'm gonna stretchhhhhhhh more now : D

Busy ~~facebooking~~ studying these days.

And I don't feel like updating my blog.

I didn't even update my diary for goodness sake.

But I had an awesome party at Mico's sweet sixteenth! :D

tada : )

The rest are on facebook, I'm too lazy to upload it here. :p

2009-09-27T22:44:00.004+08:00

Heyyy! : D

I wanna make this so photobloggish la hahaha.

Posting CAMWHORE pics right up!

Abby tidur.

Lawl. xD

Soung Hui and Su Jin with Chryssa.

Lawl Sarah looks scary.

HAHAHA MICO.

--♥--

I dunnoh whether I should go Church camp or KYC Camp!

They're both like clashing. One's on 16-19 Dec while the other's 18-21 Dec.

I reevaluated both of them to see which one to choose.

I think I'm gonna go for KYC.

But I wanna go Church camp.

GAH.

How now? D:

2009-09-25T21:42:00.008+08:00

You're my guilty pleasure. ♥

Dedicated post to me; LINK

Aiya I lazy blog la hahahaha. Coz all the photos on facebook. : p

Nah specially for the people who reads my blog.

Thank you everybody for the gifts. : D

From Mel, Joey, Ing, Suz and Fong Yi. : )

Fong Yi's

Nick! 8D (please do not enlarge; just to save your eyes)

Chryssa's :)

Beautifully engraved : ) Behind the necklace is so meaningful.

The beautifully handmade sunflower. Clockwise from top: Fong Yi, Ing, Suz, Joey, Mel

Darren's ~~mom~~. xD

My awesome bill.

My new Nike shoess! : D (THANKS MOM! xD)

And this's from her too : )

And how can you do without this photo.

It's just like...picture perfect. : )

Thanks to Chryssa.

♥

AWWWW.

2009-09-22T23:08:00.002+08:00

Something extraordinary happened today. And it's special. And it marks history. And it involves candles, food and...crepe paper...? O.o

No la I bersyok sendiri la.

It's Anna Tan Zyi Lyn's bday!!!!

hahaha I know right bersyok.

I wanna tidur de. Will blog tomorrow.

2009-09-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

I'm so not into the mood into blogging these days.

I realize I don't really let out how I really feel in my blog. And I tend to go back to where I last stop. Like it isn't recent, it's just updating from what I was too procrastinative (if there's such a word) to update.

I've always wanted the perfect blogskin, but I can't bear to make myself spend hours and hours on the computer looking for the right one. I'm not even that skilled in my photoshop either.

*sighs* And most of my recent posts are so down and depressing combining with such a dull background to begin with. Ergh I need inspiration.

--♥--

Went to church today. Didn't know there was no Youth section today and only celebration. So I had like 3 hours of ~~wasted~~ meaningful time to do. So glad I brought my accounts book for homework (in the beginning I brought it there just to show off I sangat rajin : D)

As lame as we were, we tried to do the Mexican Wave while everybody's worshipping. So when everybody's singing, we were like attempting to do the wave but fail each time coz either the person was blur of what's going on or ~~he just doesn't know wth is a Mexican Wave.~~

Sad.

Went to MV after that to look for dresses for my party. : ) Bought some Nichii and Treats clothing.

Oh yeahhh Mom bought me an early birthday present! Will show it to you in the next post.

Going to Mico's house tomorrow~

2009-09-17T22:28:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna kill this blog real soon since nothing beneficial seems to come out from this blog.

Boo.

2009-09-11T23:14:00.004+08:00

it's just you.

For once I did not allow my photo to be taken.

My hand's a lot more photogenic though ahahaha.

I'm so lazy to get my butt off this chair so I decided to blog since the com's like right in front of me.

What a silly excuse. :/

It's Friday all over again, and I'm in a dilemma (all over again) on what to wear tomorrow.

And it's just church for goodness sake why am I being all so self-conscious about image.

Speaking about image, Malcolm lent me this book by that Arnold's wife. You know the Arnold who acts in the Terminator who tells people to talk to the hand (quote pic above). Yeah his wife wrote this self-help book. In fact she's written five books herself.

I wasn't all that interested in it at first la. Coz I didn't know about this book until like out of the blue Malcolm passed it to me and says I'll find my answer in there...? So I was like ookkay lawl.

It's very straight forward about how Maria had to deal with herself. How she tried to find her real self since she became the First Lady of the State of California that forced her to quit her lucrative job as an anchorwoman in NBC (it was somewhat her dream job so imagined having to quit your most passionate job). So without that job, she felt like...lost. Like there was no aim for anything since everything she wanted was like...gone. So she was like lost at one point of her life and didn't know what to do next.

It's a pretty short book though. And the page layout makes it easier to read for all ages.

I still don't know how this book ended up being a national bestseller though. I find it too straightforward for my liking.

But it gave me some ideas to which direction I should lead my life.

: ) Thanks buddyy.

2009-09-10T19:50:00.008+08:00

Realisation.

Looking back to those days where I wasn't so self-conscious about my image or my appearance. Where I more had a goal to achieve and had the aim to be the top in the class.

The innocent. : )

There were no worries (other than just mom's nagging and a few couple minor stuff that aren't worth mentioning). Just innocent active playful kids.

I had lots of friends to play with. Laugh and fun altogether. We would tease each other about little things, like each other's crushes in school, or create funny words and phrases and try to act all grown up. We were like one big family, ignoring each other's flaws and appreciating each other's company.

Su Mae. Fong Yi. Me. Han Yean. I look like a fashion disaster.

And then came rejection. Rejection for who I was. Rejection for what I was. And how I was. How I suffered depression. How I attempted suicide. And I had no one to confront with. Even the ones that I needed to seek help the most didn't give me the comfort and support I needed to hold myself together. Every action I did were being watched by what I once called my peers. I was the centre of the attention for the wrong reasons. For that entire half of that year, the only help I could get was only myself, not understanding how things like that could happen to me.

I had very helpful and understanding friends as I went through the next school year. I tried to change my self-image and get back a bit of confidence in me. I finally managed to pull myself together, but my perceptions for what I once thought were my friends had changed drastically. I never looked at them the same way I did last time. Yet I miss the memories we shared.

I was disgusted by my past. I tried to get myself accepted again by them. I wanted to be like them. I wanted to have fun like them.

But deep down I know, that wasn't really me.

I look like a total nerd. xD

Fast forward now, I finally found true friends who understand me. Who actually care for me. Who would just share thoughts and have fun. Like how I did back then when I was younger. And because of them I can smile now.

And smile like I really meant it.

♥

2009-09-08T22:07:00.003+08:00

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Fangirlism to a whole new level. =.= (someone's gonna kill me tomorrow for this)

2009-08-31T12:17:00.006+08:00

Silly dufus crazy CG outing :p

Took so long to figure whut to dress up.

I wish my camera was better. : ( Even sony ericcson cybershot phones beat mine. D: *sobs*

Left my wallet at home. Had been whining and complaining how I needed my wallet so badly, and when I got my wallet back (my dad came to Sunway just to give me cash ;x sorry dad. I dun like to like borrow people's money, especially when it's a shopping spree) I spend like crazy. No la. But I spent like pretty much a lot for arcade. DDR FTW! 8D

Dianne tak mahu join in the photo. =.=

Jeremy sucker trying to be camera-shy (he's the total opposite)

radiant smiles. :D

Posers! : p

Fuyoh Crystal wei.

See even the boys nak cuba. But me and Lynn started first hah.

Audience. And Jeremy sucker trying to cover his freaking nice face.

They wasted dunno how many of my tokens to play this.

: )

Jeremy sucker. :P

2009-08-29T22:54:00.007+08:00

I'm so blardy pissed off.

My mom thinks I am the one who scratched her guitar.

Now this sucks coz now I don't have a guitar to self-learn anymore.

And as far as I know I was so EXTRA careful with that guitar because I know my mom doesn't like me touching her stuff so I promised I would hold it properly.

This blardy sucks.

Now I feel less musical without the guitar. And I actually wanted to buy a pick today to play on that classical guitar.

Ergh.

♥

On another lighter topic, I'm gonna be posting random photos (mostly from Chryssa's birthday party) . And since it's my blog I'm gonna take the pictures which make me look decent-looking. Hahaha.

I'll ber-procrastinate and post the rest later. :D Got tons of homework to finish gosh.

2009-08-18T23:32:00.004+08:00

Haha. I've got tons of homework waiting for me to feed them and look where am I now giving affection to my computer.

Actually I wanted to go use the computer to finish up my essay that I haven't even started. Then I got lazy and decided to go google some bina ayat stuff for my BM homework. Semua nonsense. Tak ada mood nak buat homework after that then pergi baca blog. Lepas baca blog pun masih bosan. Haiz, macam mana la ni.

Hari ini, saya sangat letih. Lepas balik sekolah, saya pergi tidur sampai pukul 9 malam. Tidak rasa masa berlalu dengan cepat. Jadi saya pergi buat Maths homework. Tapi I stuck kat satu question, oleh itu tak bersemangat nak buat question-question lain yang seterusnya.

Oleh itu, saya cuba nak pergi blog untuk mengurangkan bosan-ness saya. Tapi tak ada effect pun. Nak tidur sangat sangat tapi banyak sangat delay homework saya ada. Procrastinator saya betul.

Tiga hari lagi untuk cuti sekolah. Sudah two minggu saya tak pergi sekolah sejak kes H1N1 kat sekolah saya. Bosan betul pada dua minggu tu. Tengok TV pun bosan. I tak tahu apa yang saya cakap sekarang.

Tengok, BM saya teruk betul. Last time, my BM can tahan punya. Now apa ni, rojak betul language saya. Ala, ni Malaysian style. Apa nak buat.

2009-08-15T10:27:00.002+08:00

Because I ain't denying it.

I'm so totally bored, look whut I'm reading. : D

Me looking like a drag in the morning. And reading that.

Clearer view.

It's a brain scientist's biography about how she suffered a stroke and recovered back from it. Ironic isn't it, she's a brain scientist, and she suffered a rare hemorragic stroke known as AVM (Arteriovenous Malformation). I don't really know how to explain that but it's like the capillaries between the veins and arteries can no longer handle the pressure of the blood and starts spilling blood. Or something like that. =.=

Back to where I wanted to blog about, was the outing to Sunway yesterdayy. : D Nothing much really happened, more like we were suppose to go to One U to meet Suz's friend, but Suz's friend's brother broke his arm, and so Suz's friend and her brother are now in the hospital, so her friend who's holding the tickets to watch in One U has to cancel the outing, and since me, Ing and Suz were already dressed up for shopping, we decided to take a cab to Sunway.

Went to watch Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past. Wanted to watch G.I.Joe but I guess I can watch it another time. But the movie we were watching was really nice. : D All the girls there are super hot (and mostly some are slutty) and the plot was funny too. It's like A Christmas Carol kinda thing and the main guy gets visited by the ghost of Past, Present and Future. ;p

Gg i just spoilt my mom's built-in card reader in her laptop. D: can't upload pics now.

2009-08-12T12:24:00.009+08:00

Happy Belated B'Day MelodyChuaJiaEn! C:

Funny, bubbly bestie I can ever have : D

Known her for 5 years, she was so shy when I first knew her hahaha.

She's pretty soft-spoken still. C:

THIS PRETTY LASS'S TAKEN! xD

Too bad for you single guys out there

Anywaiz, Mel's bday was fun : D

Celebrated @ RedBox

Sang lots and lots of songs, even that Barbie song O_O

Alex sang She Bangs hahahahahha.

There pictures. C: (credits to Joe Yee too)

Hey look! COLORS.

The girls.

The guys.

The Barbie song.

Us.

Do you know how squeezy it was to fit everybody into the photo?

Lalas. : D

Ratu Sehari. C:

The bday girl. : D

Kai Jie got her a really big present. And so did Joey and Ingrid. : ) And everyone else. : D Enjoy the presents Mel! Had a great time there. ;D

2009-08-06T10:46:00.003+08:00

Omg. How many days did I skipped school?

Oh wells I have a good reason anyway. C:

Been lazying around for the past three days. Planning to go back today, but was so not in the mood for school. And I'm still sick! D:

bleh I should have gone for the Leo Joint Installation @ Sunway College. Look so fun. Compare to last year.

: <

But I went to SMKTD so it's like...worth it la.

And I've got another hectic Saturday...AGAIN.

8th August 2009

-Leo Club Exam

-Kiwanis Food & Funfair

-KAMCAO General Meeting

-Jia En's Sweet 16th Bday party @ Red Box

-XYZ CG @ DUMC

Everything all clash.

*sighs* I wish I could attend all that Leo stuff.

EDIT: GG. "Homework can also be accessed through Facebook." - Sri KL.

2009-08-02T10:50:00.007+08:00

Heh. You know whut. I love bloghopping.

It's pretty cool, you go to your friend's blog and you go to this random person's blog who happens to know your long lost friend, who happens to know your ex-classmate, who happens to know your camp friend's brother, who happens to know your ~~idiotic~~ friend of yours, who happens to know your friend's friend...

and the list goes on.

Everytime I'd like wake up everyday telling myself that I have things to do, I have house chores, I have homework and yada yada. And then the next thing I know I'll be going like "Shyt! I need to ask that person so-and-so on the net for work!" and everything else will be history for the next few hours.

Okay, back to where some of my photos are kept hidden long enough.

This is a compilation of whut my Saturday was like last week.

Went to Tony Christiansen talk. Saw many people at the talk I knew. Mae, Stephanie, Mun Ching and the 3 barleylessice guys were there.

Smart Dorothy. xD Went to SMKTD. : ) i like the students there. So friendly.

Doro. : )

Rebecca. ;p

That nurse's a male. O.o

Roland! : )

Lawl there's more but it takes such a long time to update. Ishk.

P.S. ...i still think Daniel Henney somewhat reminds me of a porn star stripper. Too beautiful perhaps?

2009-08-01T20:12:00.003+08:00

My school has H1N1. Omgosh.

2009-07-29T18:29:00.007+08:00

boo yeah! : )

I'm back blogging again.

After my ~~sucky sucky~~ wonderful internet.

Just so you know I went to this. : D

and just so you didn't know (as if the picture doesn't explains itself enough), this is LOUD '09 organised for youths. : D

And just so you know

IT'S AN UNDOUBTEDLY AWESOMELY BLASTFULLY EXHILARATING INVIGORATILY EVENT!!!!!!!!!!!

(I know I'm high, must be the chocolate)

Anywaiz, back to where we were at.

Took like 1 and a half hours to prepare myself. Arrived fashionably late (as usual) to the event coz well, no explanation needed.

Met Jeremy, Kevin's so called friend who doesn't looked form 1, who assumes I looked a lot younger the way I sound on the phone, who his first reaction was to gape his mouth open. And I dunno why. =__= Think he thought I was suppose to look like some junior secondary student.

Okay so yeah, we went to look around, and there were DDR games and Nintendo Wiis and GUITAR HERO TO PLAY. (i love guitar hero : 3 and DDR) but didn't tried playing it coz there were people lining up for it I think. So we went to walk around bought some bubble tea, watched the band performing and...

bump into a group of 4 Thetaians.

And I thought I would meet no one I know there. xD Quickly went up and say hi to Soong Hui and Brandon and Rachel and Kelvin and some of the guys. Soong Hui was like so shock to see me, I was even more shock to know that she's from DUMC. lawl xD

Some raffle draws going on as everybody walks around, waiting for the concert to start. And then...

I bumped into Aletheia, Grace and their sister.

Wow. And I thought I didn't knew anyone around. Chatted up with them a bit. Got a little excited too coz the concert's going to start soon. And then we waited and then...

I bumped into Henry.

Err...whut. There are that many people around I know here?

Was about to introduce Henry to Kevin, when the speaker boomed that the concert was going to start (so potong stim coz I was so wanting to tell Henry that Kevin's youknowwho's best friend)

And then the concert began! : D

Gonna photoblog from now on. (excuse for my ~~unprofessional~~ camera that's not some highclass photoshooting-in-detail camera)

i can't upload all the pics now maybe later. ;p

There was the Billie Jeans dance, JUNKYARD INVADERS, Real Ink Crew, The Cheerleaders and their OWN BAND!!! : D

Me, Grace, Aletheia, and the sister. O.o (i forgot her name, aiks ;x)

Kevin (Hah Amanda there's your answer) and Jeremy (see? NOTHING LIKE FORM 1)

and to many of you who didn't know.

I just accepted Christ.

: ) Praise the Lord.

2009-07-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

Please bring my external harddrive home. D: Somebody.

2009-07-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Stop stealing my best friend, woman.

You can go have your other guy friends

but just not mine.

I know I'm so possessive. I've been possessive over my best friends MOST of the time. And it gets to my nerves when some new kid in the block tries to join in. Not that I don't allow them to befriend them, but it's those people who actually act all worshipping over HIM and all innocent saying "oh so and so did this, so it inspired me to do this too." Not once, but i dunno. Countless?

For all I know, she might be a good person in reality. Yeah I actually hate people before I even met them. Bad Anna. =__= I just seem to despise a lot of people.

And I hate innocent-looking people. The way they try to sound like they're doing nothing wrong but behind all those bullshyt "angelic" words they say, it makes me want to stick my finger down my throat. Hah.

Which is weird coz a lot of things I hate had practically reflect what I am too. Like I hate people being cold to me, but at the same time I'm cold to people too. I hate lalas, I sometimes act like one. =_=

After all these random stuff that I don't know what I'm talking about, let's just say my mood has been really lousy for the past few days, resulting in my ranting over things that are not even worth talking.

P.S. I still hate her. Even though I barely know her. Gosh.

2009-07-21T20:00:00.007+08:00

FINALLY! MY INTERNET!

Was suffering for a week not being able to connect to the modem. Ersh. Pissed off betul la. Had to serve the internet using my phone.

Had Chemistry and Maths test today. Accounts tomorrow. =_= Then next week got exam some more. *exhausted brain*

Attempting to self-learn guitar using my mom's classical guitar.

.....now I really wish I had HUGE palms and LONG fingers.

This is why I prefer notes on guitars than chords.

So guitar isn't as easy as I thought.

Did manage to strum a few songs.

Especially Your Call by Secondhand Serenade. C:

i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee that sonnggg haha. xD

♥

damnit. I seriously need a freaking day planner. And I thought day planners are only needed 5 years from now.

`current song addiction ♥

Broken Strings - James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado

"It tears me up

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much

I tried to forgive but it's not enough

To make it all okay

The truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?"

2009-07-18T23:11:00.010+08:00

once in a while i'll look up, and i know you're there looking after me.

Infatuated once more.

My problem is that now I'm like not interested in a guy (other than Daniel Phillip Henney who is so way out of my league) I feel so not myself. My friends would have known me I need to at least have my eyes on some guy or something. Having a crush feels like a thrill ride. For me, that is.

Oh and I think Henry Golding's cute. : D

Go look him up. He's somewhat local dude.

And guess what.

ManUtd - Malaysia

3 - 2

I still think it's still like a kesian markah kinda thing. I mean Malaysia did kind of played well this time (compared to last year)

I'm kind of grounded.

Can't go shopping.

Can't go events.

Can't go BON ODORI today.

Didn't go to DaiCon at MMU last week.

Can't go for KAMCAO meeting tomorrow.

Couldn't go Sunway with Ingrid.

All because of my results.

The month when I'm busy is the month she go and potong everything AWAY.

See la. One day got how many things.

25th July 2009.

-IU day Interact Club SMK USJ 4 @ SriKL

-Leo Club Installation @ Sunway College

-IU Day Interact Club SMK Taman Desa

-Tony Christiansen Talk for KCKL members

-and some other random appointment

2009-07-16T20:42:00.003+08:00

To somebody somebody :)

What is your damn problem man. I'm just asking you for help. And it wasn't anything big. It's just some bloody printer. I just had to ask you for help because there was no one else during that time that could help me print. And you agreed to help so it took me high and low just to get the project done. And then I was so happy that I got it done and I get someone to help me. And what, the next day I get a stupid answer saying that "I didn't print it?" And your reason was "I got it from Wikipedia?" What's the matter from getting it (80% NOT 99%) FROM WIKIPEDIA. It's not like I'm making one of my largest discovery on that project. I just need good INFORMATION. And it just so happens that WIKIPEDIA suited my TASTE. So why do YOU EVEN CARE? JUST BLOODY PRINT IT. It's just BLOODY PRINTING. I'm asking you for your help just to PRINT and you give me this stupid argument thing that you wouldn't print it for me and you did not want to "save my ass?" So as a wonderfully wonderfully awesome friend that I trusted, you decided to not let me get my marks and get me scolded by teacher and sent me straight for lectures just because my work wasn't original. It's just some bloody information to find out about the gemstone. I already memorised it because I was SCANNING TO MINIMIZE STUFF FOR YOU TO PRINT.

Ergh. So peeved right now.

2009-07-08T20:11:00.004+08:00

R.I.P. To the King of Pop.

Was watching the Michael Jackson Memorial on Starworld. His daughter made the most touching speech ever. Even though it was short, everybody from all around the world could understand her pain.

He was a great father, brother, son and a legend to all.

Rest in Peace Michael Jackson.

2009-07-06T20:40:00.006+08:00

"Baby, if you ever knew

The heartache that you've put me through

You'd cry

Cry like I do"

It's a Zach Phillips song lyrics by the way. ;p

Came across it while reading Natural Born Charmer by Susan Elizabeth Phillips.

Yes his mother's book.

So Mr. Chew (our school principal) was talking today about how he was going to disciplined us (in a way). He checks the students' blogs, which is utterly scary. For me that is. Though I think I have done nothing wrong...? D: I'm not too sure of myself.

Darn it I dunno who I should cosplay. >.<

Comic Fiesta's a long way to go but I have to give my orders by mid-July. D: It's ALREADY almost mid-JULY.

any suggestions?

24/6/09

Went to sewage the day before I left for Singapore. The place obviously stinky (duh) when we got down from the bus. Sat in this conference room listening to how "sludge" gets processed and the treated water sent back to the river.

...? (yes it's me, trying to cover my face)

Sarah looking like the next president. ;p

this too.

Mico, me, Amanda.

Comelnya Mico hahaha.

lulz.

lmao.

"Sludge" posers. ;p

They love the spotlight.

Sarah, Amanda and Mico.

Most of 4 Theta and Sigma. : )

Photoblog the rest later.

Gtg study.

P.S. EVA'S BACK FROM THE AMERICAS! xD

2009-07-04T20:50:00.009+08:00

freedom is beautiful. ♥

☺

What do you want me to blabber.

I have a week's homework because I barely understand anything the teacher was teaching because I was absent and therefore I decided to not copy and do them on my own and said I would do once I understand the whole topic on my OWN.

Which is shyt because I actually studied from the book because the teachers had to finished up the topic fast coz tests are like next week and teachers weren't free to teach me. But when I did studied the book and asked teachers stuff that I don't understand, they'd look at me in horror and go like "Don't follow the book, study my notes! Ask your friends for my NOTES!!!"

...so much for being studious.

Went home yesterday with Ingrid and we were being all chattery in her van while everyone else was busy doing their own stuff. I mean the whole van was fulled with our chitter chats and how we wanted gay best friends who go like "Like Oh.My.Gosh." and act all bitchy. Manbitches we would call. ;p I mean like they're so fun to be around with and they know how to comfort a girl and be a true friend when they want to. xD

Wanted to make cupcakes but ended up having to make pancakes after an hour long search at Cold Storage in Summit for some Cupcake Mix thing that has all the cupcake ingredients. The service at Cold Storage is shyt. We asked like 5 different people for the same thing and they either don't understand English or they are new staffs or whatever bullshyt.

Ergh.

I wish they wouldn't wolf whistle when we passed by.

2009-07-01T22:41:00.006+08:00

danielphilliphenney is so sexay. ;3

Boo yeah! : )

I'm back blogging.

I macam tak ada benda nak blog la. D:

Went back to school yesterday after 4 days of another whopping seminar at Singapore.

Banyak homework. D;

And I barely understood the new topics that I was being taught because I was absent for so long.

Ishk.

Marah betul.

I'm seriously in love with Susan Elizabeth Phillips. : ) Her books are so awesome. The way she elaborates the character's personality and the story plot is so climaxing. Everytime I re-read it again it just feels like a fresh new feeling rushing through me.

and Happy Birthday Donkey Marcus! : ) ~~Even though you don't read my blog :x~~

Oh and I met this 17-year-old dude in that Singapore seminar.

I tak tahu siapa dia.

Out of the blue,

chats up with me.

And asks for my contact.

Damn awkward. D: I'm not used to this.

Gave it and ran away.

And then coincidentally on the same day he's sitting next to me in the plane on the flight back to KL.

...interesting. ;)

2009-06-21T17:04:00.006+08:00

edit: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDDIEEE ♥

I don't like my marks. D:

So sick and tired these days.

~~And i failed add maths.~~

and D for physics.

and a C for chem.

a C for maths.

and either a B/C for english.

or a B/C for accounts.

a B/C for BM.

a B for biology.

Probably A for business studies.

Totally A for malaysian studies.

going to singapore in 4 days. :)

Random photoblogging again.

My awesome ipod connected to the home theatre system and playing it loud.

me,myselfandI. C:

2009-06-14T22:21:00.005+08:00

Last day of school holidays.

Got my diary back.

Got my pen drive back.

Been for a 3-full-day marketting seminar.

Learn to earn money.

Coz it's never too young to learn. ;p

Anywaiz.

Seminar's awesome.

Seriously if you wanna venture into any business, this is such a darn good seminar.

It NEVER EVER bores you.

100 % promise.

It's T. HARV EKER!

The Millionaire's Mind intensive PROGRAM!

SUPER AWESOME.

In fact, I never realize that a friend of mine, who's a year older had been participating in such programs for a while. He's such an awesome leader. Leading a group of 30 experienced leaders, a lot older than him, knowing a lot more in the market, and he's the leader of their group. Awesome.

Anywaiz, I bumped into a few ex-SriKLians there.

And I made new friends.

And erm, I was really doing my best to get to know...this guy.

>___<

And he's...24.

From 15 to 24.

Very big difference.

Tak mahu elaborate de, later he gets too much of a hint from this post. ;p

2009-06-13T00:35:00.004+08:00

Oh and I almost forgot ;p

Big loves to all of you babes and jocks

♥

2009-06-13T00:18:00.004+08:00

I just knew it this day would come. : D

Lesson learnt:

Burning money is a sin.

2009-06-10T13:58:00.006+08:00

I better relive the moments before they get lost. ;p

Pre-day (3/6/09)

Did last minute shopping in the afternoon. Finally bought a swimsuit or I'll be stuck to my Std 6 one which my mom thinks it could still FIT me! Had to be there in school by 9.30 pm and by the time we're done shopping it was 7! Some more belum pack lagi.

Reach school by 9 pm. Mom's coming along with the group so I really hoped that she wouldn't be so overprotective over me like how she did when I was in some camp two years ago. It embarrasses me thinking about it.

It was a freaking long journey. 9 hours. 9 HOURS! Erghh. Could barely sleep a wink. And I was still darn sick. Kept coughing in the middle of the night. Some more we were watching "Scream" in the bus. Disgusting gory teens. Eeeewww.

Finally we reached the jetty.

Day 1 (4/6/09)

Omgosh yay. Finally. Another 2 hours to reach Laguna Redang. Facilities in Redang was so wonderful. And the beach was SO CLEAN. Not like Port Dickson. =.= The water was crystal clear blue. So after check in, then get some refreshing free drinks from the counter and then we go change and jumped into the swimming pool. Spent like a few hours there then we went to the beach. And it wasn't even evening yet. Can imagine how freaking hot that place was.

Then makan lunch. The squirrels damn cute wei running around the restaurant. No wonder it's called the Tupai Bar la. Then mommie and Joey were like feeding that thing and taking extremely close shots of the cute little squirrel eating up pieces of watermelons. After that go back swimming, went for dinner yada yada then go relax in the room and then head off to one of the bars near the beach. And then people ordered alcohol drinks just for the fun of it. Joey's Margarita drink was darn nice. After that play around in the beach and then headed for the KTV disco. Mom scolded me to like come back early (it was 11 pm by then) and then my phone died.

Oh oh yeah me and Mel wanted to like dance on the dance floor but we were so darn shy then we ask the boys to join us but they also like "You all go first then we follow" The dance floor was like packed with some teenagers from some Chinese group. So when the dance floor kind of cleared we go dance, then the rest join in. Jia Qi was like dancing his own freestyle haha. Then the Chinese group decided to like challenge us la. They go show off their moves like crazy and then boo us coz we never challenged back. Apa ni la. Piss me off. Hate people provoking. Went back earlier than the rest with Ing.

Day 2 (5/6/09)

The next day we went snorkelling at the Marine Park. Mom kept telling me not to go, say that if I go I drown not my problem (coz I was still sick, nose block and bla bla). So delay delay delay until by 9 am I just ignored the advice and just go get my snorkelling tools at the counter. And the boat leaves at 9.30 am. So rushing. And I forgot to put my sunblock. Genius.

The divers in charge of the place was telling me snorkelling will be no problem for me even though I was sick (wasting my time worrying) because I was going to be floating on the surface, not diving. I joined the group later on (followed by my mom who wanted to go snorkelling too) and goodness, you can even see the corals from afar. Super clear water. Fed the fishes with some bread my mom bought, then we went to swim further around the sea (not really far from shore though) hopefully to catch a glimpse of other fishes other than just some black-white-striped fishes and corals. Mel dropped her snorkelling piece like twice and so did Chu Wen. Dick Yang had to go dive down to rescue the tools twice. Other than that, there was really nothing else interesting. I'd rather prefer the view from above than swimming.

Then went back to the resort, went a bit of swimming. Then rest in the room for a while as Ing wanted to take a nice nap. Was so tired by then. Then wanted to go to the beach but Ms. Menon told us something happened in the beach so we can't go ther. Apparently someone drowned in the sea. Condolences to him.

Then stayed in the room for a while to watch Death Race. Watched the beginning then the group wanted to go the beach. So we followed.

Didn't go near the water though. Played with the sand bla bla bla go cover Mun Hoe with sand and yada yada. Then at night we went for dinner, and we walked across the beach (passing three hotels) and go yam cha at some disco place.

The boys ordered two large lamps of shisha. Damn scary wei. I think Ingrid was the only one who never even touched it. Dunno about the rest, tried to use it but hesitated and didn't even manage to do a puff.

Then we went back to the disco and celebrated LEK YANG's birthday. xD Most of the boys kissed him on the cheek but Kai Jie went damn high and kissed him on the LIPS! O.o Then spent most of the time at the disco till around 1 am. Then went to sleep.

Day 3 (6/6/09)

Was damn blur when I found out in the morning that Joey was with TH, Mel was with Kai Jie and DY and JQ were hitting on Chu Wen. It was so...sudden. And weird. It's like they barely know each other 3 days ago and --POOF!!

Waited for the boat to arrive which delayed, then went to the internet room with the others and chat there. Then the boat arrived, sleep there, got off jetty, makan, got into the bus and waited for the next 9 hours to pass. Reached school around 11.30 pm. Then got home, chat sikit on the com, then tidur.

Pics are in Facebook. Too lazy to upload them now.

nothing will hide that mystery you seek.

for all it's worth it's just something so unique.

it lies with power, it kills with soul,

and everything else shall be left untold.

2009-06-09T14:28:00.004+08:00

Lulz so bored.
I didn't know I got tagged.
Anywaiz.
Tagged by Amanda Ch'ng Jia Min. : )

5 people I tag...:
Ingrid
Melody
Wan Mei
Buddy
Amanda

Mark the bands you've heard of.
not just the ones you like.
If you really have never heard of them, don't mark it.
be honest people!

ALTERNATIVE:
Breaking Benjamin [x]
Paramore [x]
Panic! At The Disco [x]
Linkin Park [x]
The Academy Is [x]
Coldplay [x]
Three Days Grace [x]
Yellowcard [x]
30 Seconds to Mars [x]
Chevelle [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR = 9--------------------------

COUNTRY:
Rascal Flatts [x]
Carrie Underwood [x]
Leanne Rhymes [x]
Garth Brooks [ ]
Dixie Chicks [x]
Kenny Chesney [ ]
Tim McGraw [x]
Faith Hill [x]
Shania Twain [ ]
Johnny Cash [x]
TOTAL SO FAR = 16-----------------------------------------------

EMO:
Hawthorne Heights [ ]
Chiodos [ ]
Forgive Durden [ ]
Amber Pacific [ ]
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus [x]
From First to Last [ ]
Senses Fail [x]
Underoath [ ]
Something Corporate [ ]
Hit The Lights [x]
Dear Whoever [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR = 19-----------------------------------------

INDIE:
The Hush Sound [ ]
NeverShoutNever! [ ]
Death Cab for Cutie [ ]
Dashboard Confessional [x]
The Killers [x]
Yeah Yeah Yeahs [x]
Hot Hot Heat [ ]
Gym Class Heroes [x]
Franz Ferdinand [x]
Modest Mouse [x]
TOTAL SO FAR = 25----------------------------------------

METAL:
Slipknot [x]
System of a Down [x]
Disturbed [x]
Metallica [x]
Guns n' Roses [x]
Lamb of God [ ]
Slayer [x]
Hatebreed [ ]
Killswitch Engage [ ]
Children of Bodom [x]
Arch Enemy [ ]
megadeath [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR = 32----------------------------------------

POP:
Teddy Geiger [x]
Ashlee Simpson [x]
Kelly Clarkson [x]
Jesse McCartney [x]
Avril Lavigne [x]
P!NK [x]
The Veronicas [x]
Daniel Powter [x]
James Blunt [x]
Natasha Bedingfield [x]
Ryan Cabrera [x]
TOTAL SO FAR = 43-------------------------------

POWERPOP/PUNK:
Hellogoodbye [ ]
Cute is What We Aim for [ ]
Cartel [ ]
The Click Five [x]
Fall Out Boy [x]
Rise Against [ ]
Good Charlotte [x]
Bowling for Soup [x]
Relient K [x]
Anti - Flag [ ]
Simple Plan [x]
TOTAL SO FAR = 49-----------------------------------

RAP:
Ying Yang Twins [ ]
T.I. [x]
Paul Wall [ ]
TuPac [ ]
Jamie Foxx [x]
Ludacris [x]
Lil' Jon [x]
Outkast [x]
50 Cent [x]
Kanye West [x]
Notorious B.I.G [x]
Young Jeezy [x]
TOTAL SO FAR = 58-------------------------------

SKA:
Reel Big Fish [ ]
The Specials [ ]
Caddies [ ]
Rancid [ ]
The Aquabats [ ]
Sublime [ ]
No Doubt [x]
Madness [ ]
Operation Ivy [ ]
Bob Marley [x]
TOTAL SO FAR= 60------------------------------

ROCK:
Taking Back Sunday [ ]
All-American Rejects [x]
Motion City Soundtrack [ ]
Avenged Sevenfold [x]
Angels and Airwaves [x]
Evanescence [x]
My Chemical Romance [x]
Drowning Pool [ ]
Green Day [x]
Blink-182 [x]
Madina Lake [ ]
TOTAL SO FAR = 67-----------------------------

CLASSIC ROCK:
The Beatles [x]
Led Zeppelin [x]
The Rolling Stones [x]
The Cure [ ]
The Who [ ]
Pink Floyd [x]
Jimi Hendrix [x]
Queen [x]
Van Halen [ ]
Poison [ ]
AC/DC [x]

TOTAL= 74
Multiply your TOTAL by 2
Then Re-post this as:
I'm 148 % obsessed with music.

2009-06-01T00:55:00.005+08:00

So Leo Charity Dinner 2009 was a blast C:

The dressing up, the performances, the games

And last but not least

PARTYYYINGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!! xD

Gary, Gay Shaun, Hitman Jeff

Zhi Lynn and me. ;p haven't spoken to her for ages since then.

Jess and Dan. C:

Li Zhen, Me, Audrey

Sheryl solo on her guitar.

I couldn't even recognize Christabel. Until I saw the camera.

ENTER SANDMAN!!

Lazy to update the rest. Maybe later.

Nites.

2009-05-30T00:11:00.005+08:00

2009-05-25T18:46:00.010+08:00

If I start updating during the holidays it's going to cover the whole blog with tons of pictures.

So I'll better update everything before it starts to pile up.

So here we go, School's Open Day.

If I were to upload all the pics here, it's going to loook like one silly little album full of mico's twisted faces and amanda's poses.

Red house cheerleaders.

I have no comment.

Lipstick has LEAD!

"Like OMG" says Sarah.

The pro artist...

...who painted, draw, and colour this. If you took a closer look, it just looks like a professional work.

SAVE THE TREES!

Spot "Screw The Trees"

Lol @ Kok Wai.

Last but not least ~~gigolo~~ ~~pedo~~ Shaun who camwhored with my camera :/

Till then more updates!

2009-05-20T16:05:00.004+08:00

omgosh omgosh omgosh omgosh omgosh omgosh omgosh

2nd day of exam.

5 down, 13 more to go.

10 days to pure freedom.

2009-05-15T16:25:00.008+08:00

I should ever ever stop being a wannabe.

I am so serious. I thought my attitude changed from last time. Well it did got better. And at some point, it did got worse.

Looking back, I seriously didn't like how I look at all before. Maybe I still look the same now.
But I didn't know I had an all carefree attitude, which won me really great friends.

Until I changed in Form 2.
A little bit.
Maybe their attitudes changed too. Or maybe mine just pushed them away.

But anyhow it brought a whole new me. Can't say that I dislike it but I'm just proud of who I am.

Well, I'm still progressing to be better. Anyhow I'm pressuring myself to work harder.

And...

SRIKL OPEN DAY'S TOMORROW! : D

9-4 am. : D

SUPPORT WWF!
And many other cooll experiments being demonstrated!
...and also FACIAL TREATMENTS!

so come come come come come come everybody! : D

upcoming events.
-leo club charity dinner
-field trip to penang
-more camps